I belong to a 12-step for co-dependency (CoDA). I had a sponsor but she left me a voicemail one day that said she couldn't be my sponsor anymore. About 2 months later she called again and apologized for doing that and she would be more the willing to continue sponsoring me. Being codependent I first thought it was something that I did but it wasn't. After she called and basically said never mind, I will do it I was still upset and not sure that I could trust her to not do that again. I don't need wishy washy people in my life, I do that enough on my own. So I am working the steps on my own and trying to be more consistent about attending the meetings.
Step two states "Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity." One of the questions to help work this step is; What attributes does my higher power have? and How do they support me? As I was writing these things out I realized that I was describing someone I know in real life. I had to pause for a minute and regroup my thoughts. This wasn't a bad thing, I guess I just didn't realize how deeply this person effects me. Being bipolar and working these steps my higher power definitely wears multiple hats as far as attributes go.
I found it fascinating that the words I used to describe my higher power are also the same words I would use to describe someone very close to me. Do I think of that person as my higher power? No, but I am attracted to the idea that they are similar. I also like the second part of step two: could restore us to sanity. If I know what my "sanity" looks like then I can use that as my target. Knowing the target and taking life one day at a time will be a big accomplishment for me.
Question?
Is there someone in your life that is like your higher power?
With Love,
BPT
